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Best Christmas gifts ever!!!

An awesome new harness and a pair of nasty pig underwear... from Dan!!!!

Lunch break fuck

My phone buzzed as I got the texts

"you at home?"
"Maybe I can swing by"

I gave him my address and within 5 minutes he was at my door.
He came in and we started making out. This kid is so adorable, blonde, blue eyes, a furry little body and
a firm bubble butt. He pawed at my chest, very turned on that my chest hair had grown back.

We undressed and stood in my room naked, kissing deeply. I then started to lick, suck, and nibble on his ear.
We got onto my bed, I put a pillow underneath him and started to eat out his his fuzzy bubble butt.
As this adorable boy moaned, I rubbed lube all over my hard dick, I got up and lubed his hole, and lined up.
I entered his tight boyhole and sunk all the way into him.

He moaned some more and held onto me as I fucked his ass.
He kept moaning.

"Right there"
"Give it to me"

I had him get on his hands and knees and really plowed into him, making his tight hole open up.
I grabbed onto his hips and pounded him hard, all the while he kept begging me for my cum, begging to be seeded.

It didnt take long for him to get his wish, soon my balls were tightening up and I shot a potent load of cum up his cute little ass. We kissed again and he said, :Now I can concentrate at work." I hope he gets horny a lot so I can be his lunch break.

New blog

This pussy boy has already got my cock hard. Figured I would share with you guys.

I missed it

But as of two days ago, Life in the Raw became Two Years Old.
Two years of me writing down my sex life, and random thoughts about my sexuality and being a Poz Man.
Go me.

Here's to year number three,

Flashback fuck- 3 way in the "office"

I was at work one day and I saw someone who I had played with before.
 We made small talk and I went back to my post at the massage chair.
I had a client soon and I thought to check on my room to make sure everything was in order.
I went and the door was closed, I always keep it open. The lights were also off.
I opened the door and my playmate had brought a muscled guy into the room.

The muscle guy freaked out a bit, since I was in my uniform. I smiled and upzipped my pants.
My buddy and I then bent the muscle guy over the table. We got on our knees and began licking his sweet
muscle hole. He was moaning in ecstacy as our tongues dueled on his puckering hole.

My buddy then lined up his raw dick and began fucking the muscle guy, sliding into his big and firm ass over and over, he was slow and deep. Then He pulled out and let me have a turn, then he started fucking his mouth. He spit roasted this muscled pig. I felt my balls tighten and my buddy started moaning louder.

We both came in unison, I was collapsed on our nameless muscle hunk as shot after shot of seed filled his guts. My buddy moaned as he blew his load down his throat. Cum from both ends. We caught our breath and the muscle guy laid on his back and jerked off, cumming while I ate my cum from his ass.

Bareback Porn Vs Condom Porn: What they are missing...

Okay, I was talking to a fan about this. Figured I would share it with the masses. The appeal that TIM, early HDK and Machofucker have over companies like say, Channel 1.  Now lets remove the obvious fact that we are comparing bareback to condoms. People that would never bareback are drawn to the bareback stuff, and why? Hell, why was I first drawn to it.

One of my friends that I watched Breeding Season with said that the men were so manly that he could taste the testosterone through the screen.

But here's my reason, movies like Breeding Season, Planting Seed, Plowed, Machofucker, Bareback Buddies, Boys Club... it feel less that you are watching porn and more that you are watching men fuck.
There is no playing to the screen with what passes for a rim job in Channel 1 films, these men in TIM, HDK, etc seem to be basically unleashed on each other like a pack of wolves. I still remember, in my opinion, the hottest moment in Cumsloppy Buttholes is when Dawson tells Jesse O Toole that he was jacked off thinking about getting fucked by him so many times. That drunken moment of lust, when we finally land that guy we want, its a real moment, and things like that just aren't in movies like Channel 1.

I think it would be hotter if the men were allowed to just fuck and enjoy sex and have it not be the theatrical production that those movies are.

(as to why I am using Ch1 as an example, I see that companies movies exclusively when I am at Hollywood Spa)

Some Titan stuff I find hot, but thats because I love furry muscle daddies)

Ass Blogs

It should come to know shock that I LOVE ASS.
Especially hairy muscled load taking asses.

I thought I would share these blogs with you:

MALE_ASS_BANQUET
CULAZOS_MASCULINOS

and

GAYRIMMINGASSBLOG.


To all my fellow ass men, enjoy the view.

Your friendly neighborhood Mindtrip.

Steamroom threeway

Just came back from Hollywood Spa, while walking in the basement I spotted this really hot blonde muscle cub. We made some small talk, then I headed upstairs and walked around.

Upstairs, I walked into the steamroom, he was sitting in there, along with a latin guy that I had rimmed earlier. The latin guy walked out and blondie sat next to me, lifting his ass up so I could play with his hole. He moaned softly, I suggested he get on all fours so I can eat his hole. He did. I dove into his meaty, beefy, ass and he was moaning loudly.

The latin guy walked back in, saw the action and came over and started to fuck blondie's face.
I slid my bare dick into his muscle cub ass, I took my time to let him feel me, get used to me.
Then I grabbed onto his butt and pounded him hard while the latin guy fucked his face.
His hole was wet and hot, and we were sweating like pigs as we barebacked in the steamroom.

The latin guy then took his turn on blondie's ass. He fucked him wildly, held him down and pumped his humpy butt. I took on jerking my dick. He looked back at us. Then the latin guy pulled out and I went back into his raw hole. I pounded him hard and the latin guy cheered me on. I growled as I emptied a hot dose of semen into his ass, blondie moaned in pleasure as he felt his ass filled with cum. Then the latin fucked him again, using his cum filled hole, pinning him down and fucking him deep.

"Breed me."

The blond was in heat, loving his hole getting used.
The latin guy shot a load deep into him, then pulled out, his dick shining.

Mindtrip: Now with references!!!

There has been this guy that I have wanted to get with for a while. So long in fact that I had given up. He would hit me up and it would never happen, so I was kinda doubting that he was real. Well, last week when I was in town, a fuckbuddy of mine (rawnutcatcher) hit me up and told me that he was hanging out with this guy and that he thinks I would be a great fit.

Well, I was spending some quality time with my daddy, so I wasn't going anywhere.
Later I got an email from this guy, telling me that his friend told him that i was right up his alley and that he and I should hook up. 

Yesterday, I went over to his place, this guy is very rugged handsome. Mustache, goatee, body hair. We went in his room and got naked. His ass was meaty and hairy.

"XXXX said you are a lot of fun he said. And he is real nasty, so I can imagine what what_youve_done_with_him." He told me.

We went to his room and we got to it, making out, eating each others hole. He was very ravenous.
I put in on his stomach, I had eaten is hole so much that we didn't need any lube. I sldi right into his furry meaty ass.

"Yeah, thats it. Fuck my pussy, make me feel it."

I grabbed onto his huge nipples from behind and tweaked them, this made him moan even louder...

"Those are wired to my hole... awww fuck!!!"

I put him on his back and slammed his hole, kissing him while my dick went in and out of his cunt.
I took my hands off of his nipples and grabbed his ass and plowed him hard.
He was moaning, whimpering, in total lustfilled haze. I kept slamming into his butt and soon I was exploding deep into his guts, I lay on him, panting, as my dick deflated and left his fucked hole. He flipped me over and ate my hole, telling me how sweet it was. I ate his cum filled ass and soon I was hard again, i got up and jerked off and shot in his hole, that he was holding open, I shoved my dick in and pressed the cum in.

he never gave a real reason as to why we never hooked up, but he said he was glad that XXXX said I was good for a fun time. So am I.

Showing off for daddy!!!

My daddy has told me for a while now that he wanted to see me in action.

That he wanted to see what I told him about, what he read about. My daddy wanted to see me fuck.
I invited one of my fuck buddies over, a short and muscled latin boy, age 30.
The lights were totally off, he couldn't see my daddy sitting in the corner.
I undressed him and I gave his hole a few licks before I applied lube to his hole.
I slid into his tight pussy and nailed him hard, harder than I usually fuck him.
My daddy was watching and I wanted to put on a show, he sat silently, listening to the sounds coming from my bed, he couldnt really see, but he could hear the moans and cries he made, I took great pleasure in shoving my dick in deep and making him cry out from it.

I pounded his bubble butt deep, held him down, making sure I fucked him like we were making a Machofucker video.
He begged for my cum from my dick, he told me how much of a whore he is for cum, how he craves it and needs it in his hungry boy pussy on a daily basis.
I made him talk louder, so my daddy could hear.
I ground deeply into his hole, and then in a weak voice, he begged for my load.
I unloaded in his hole, growling as my seed filled his guts.

I turned and looked at me, I could tell he wanted more, that he wanted to kiss and cuddle.
I would kiss and cuddle, but with my daddy, this boy had served his purpose to me.
I had him dress and sent him on his way.

Later my daddy told me

"Damn, I could almost feel how much your were hurting that boy's cunt."

Speaking as a neg bottom, if I put the phrase 'poz friendly' in my profile, how will it be interpreted? Thanks. Steven.

It says to me that you are willing to play with HIV positive guys.
Anything else depends on what else your profile says.

Ask me anything

May I see a pic of your daddy's dick & body?

No. When he gave me pics he said they were for me to keep, not to share.

Ask me anything

can you describe your Daddy?

He's 5'9''. White guy, looks like Daniel Craig, lightly hairy chest, sweet hole and a huge dick.

Ask me anything

Are you on any kind of drug therapy for being positive and if so what does that cost? I guess what I am asking is what is life like after you are diagnosed positive? Cause I am trying really hard to get there but I am not sure were there is? Mark

I am a non progressor. In the three years that I have been positive my CD4(white blood cell count, basically a measure of how strong my immune system is) has flucuated between a high 1100 and a low 1200. Doctors have you go on drug therapy when your CD4 drops below 500.

Thus I am not on meds yet and I haven't been.
As for cost, I know that cities have programs to assist with
meds if you don't have insurance, with a lot of funds raised by events such as the California AIDS Life cycle and donations.

Ask me anything

My birthday present

My daddy flew in from Miami last night for my birthday. We havent seen each other in over a year. There was a lot of hugging, kissing, and laughing. As we lay in my bed, it was the most surreal feeling holding him,
I just couldn't believe that he was here, and that he came here just for me. Soon, our clothes were off and we just kissed, naked. He nibbled on my neck which drove me insane. If nothing else happened, he was here with me, and that's all I couldb possibly want.

I turned over on my stomach and he lay on top of me, feeling my body.
He lubed up his dick and my ass and told me to relax.
I beathed in and out slowly, I reminded myself that this is no mere man,
this is the man I love with all my heart.
And before the night was over, his cum was going to be inside of me.

He kissed the back of my neck while he pressed his rock hard dick against my hole.
He told me to relax, he open up to him.
It hurt. But I wasn;t going to stop.
This wasn't a trick I was with.
It was HIM.

I grit my teeth through the pain and let him get inside.
I moved my ass back to take more of him inside of me, I got to my hands and knees and took him all in.
Once he was feely inside, and I heard his moan of pleasure, anything I felt didn't matter.
I had given him what he wanted.
He was slow, moving up and down inside of my ass.
Telling me that now it was complete, that now, he owned every part of me.
That I was going to take the load that should have pozzed me in the first place.
That his daddy load was going to mark my boycunt, then it started to feel good.
Real fucking good, I was whimpering and moaning into the pillow as he fucked me.
His raw white dick violating my ass.  He started to pick up the pace, his sweat was all over my back.

He pounded me hard, I asked him how it felt.

"It feels like my boy's hole needs daddy's dick and load, thats what it feels like.
It feels good baby"

I was flat on my stomach and he was pumping in and out.

"Are you ready for your gift?"

Yes. Oh God yes.

He really started to pound now, my hole was open and I took his fucking.
I felt his dick pulse inside of me, I felt his body shake on top of me, I felt the gush after gush of hot daddy cum claim my hole. He cried out in pleasure as he shot in me, as he shot a massive load in me/
The load I kept in me as i slept, the load that is in me as I write this.

There was no other way I wanted to spend my birthday than with the man I love,
and waking up this morning, It's true what Matt and Dan have said.

"There is nothing like waking up with a load of poz cum in your ass."

It's ranting time

I've been talking about this with a few guys lately, so I decided to share it with you guys.
If I'm wearing a condom, its not only the decrease in pleasure that keeps me from wanting to wrap it up,
its something else, something that I cannot shake or over look. My mind wont shut up and I cannot get into 'the groove', if you will. When someone insist on a condom they are saying "I am neg, and I want to stay that way. I do not know your status and will not take you on your word, I will take the proper measures to protect myself." If you believe anyone is neg on their word, you are a fucking idiot. I have heard of guys, (doctors that have access to this) that if you wanted to bareback they gave you the rapid HIV test at their place. I know that someguys demand a recent HIV test to play raw. (Though that can be forged)

The fact is this, if a guy cares about his status, he will demand safe sex. In that lies my issue.
The first time I tried a condom after converting, the thing broke. I freaked out. The other guy didnt, but I did.
After that I couldnt relax with him, and I went home. He often pursued me but I always kept him at a distance.

When a guy lets me in raw, to me that says, I have HIV or I dont care about my status. That level of responsibility is gone and it's not something I have to worry about. Even if a guy doesnt want cum in his ass, I still dont have to worry about infecting this person.

I'm free to enjoy myself.

Now, I made the mistake of logging on to adam4adam the other day. This guy came onto me and I told him that I am poz and looking for BB only, he said it was okay that I was poz, that we could wear a condom. I once again said That I was looking for BB sex with a fellow HIVer. He then freaks out at me, calling me everyname in the book, and telling me that all i want to do is spreads AIDS. Now, I know this was just bitterness, gay men often act like you are killing their dog when you wont have sex with them, even when they have boyfriends, that I dont get. You have someone to hold you, put up with your shit, eat cereal in the afternoon while watching Law and Order, and you are going to bitch that some random guy wont have sex with you. But its funny... when guys get pissed at me adam4adam, the first thing they do is pull up my race and status. Yes, I am black and I have HIV, if in your bitterness you want to call me an AIDS Nigger, that only shows how immature you are and how little you have going for you in the character department. Having been black all my life and growing up in a podunk town, my give a shit over the word nigger died a long time ago, you have to try harder to piss me off. And yes, I am Poz... its not an insult, it is a consequence of my actions, and one that I accept.
Anyway, my thoughts are jumbled as fuck, but its midnight, what can you expect.

Pretty much two more days until my daddy comes from Miami... I cant wait, I am overdue for cuddles.

Clusterfuck of emotions

There is a sexy latin guy that I usually run into at Hollywood Spa, his smooth bubble butt always on display in his opened room, dildos over the bed, lube and poppers at hand. His tanned skin, muscled frame, dark hair, and hazel eyes. A beautiful man, and one that always gets my dick rock hard.

Everytime I walk into his room, I close the door, remove the string of the thong from his crack, eat out his pussy and slide my raw dick into his hole. AT first, he moans and whimpers in pleasure, but then, My tempo picks up, I began to drill him, I thrust like a wild man, while holding his face down into the pillow. He's told me that my fucking is very primal, very animalistic. That sometimes he feels he can barely handle me, that he wonders if i am making it my mission to destroy his asshole.

He begs me to breed him, not just because he loves cum in his hole, but because he knows my orgasm will calm the beast that his ass brings out in me. He knows after I have bred him, that his hole his safe from my assault. He's told me that his pussy twitches at the sight of me, yet his body quivers in fear.

Always in the basement, always with the door open, always the same animalistic raping fuck.

The second time I fucked him, another black guy my age knocked on the door, and we took turns attacking his hole, he has this latin jock nearly in tears, the other black guy was bigger, but I was wilder.

Please cum, he begged. Please cum. We both gave it to him, leaving his hole a beaten and bruised cum filled mess.

Fear. Desire. Hunger. Lust. His eyes tell all these and more when we see each other.
I love the power he has given me over him, and often I will fuck him, leave... and come back to him. Knowing that he is lying in his room, knowing that I will not stop fucking him, until my DNA is left within his hole.

A reader wanted to know why I cut my ties with Ted...

One night Ted requested that I go over and fuck mulhollandbottom. Worst hook up I ever had. The guy was drunk, drugged out of his mind, kept flailing about when he wasnt passing out, and on top of that was rude as fuck to the monitor. Who in my opinion is one of the nicest guys in Los Angeles. One of the nicest guys I have ever met actually. A few of his bottoms around this time were extreme flakes and wastes of time, Hunter Cole and lacumdawg cum to mind. I told Ted how bad that hookup was, and after that when he asked me to fuck a bottom, I didnt go.




There was a bottom that will remain unnamed that ted has access too, knowing that I was going to be in New York, he said he would get me this bottom as a means of making up to me what a bad experience I had.

A week before my trip, I asked him and he said he couldn't do it.
Okay, no harm, no foul. This guy travels alot for work, so chances were he couldnt make it.
 
Then Ted offers me wildchild from adam4adam... Hunter Cole. Los Angeles's most worthless tweaked out flake. That's what got to me, had it just been left that I could nail the hot bottom in NYC, I wouldn't have cared, but for him to have that worthless tweaked out piece of shit on his roster...
 A gave a snide remark, Ted gave one back.
 
I decided that being a "Ted Top" really didnt hold anything for me anymore.
Broke contact with Ted, had his monitor remove my number from his phone and that was that.
 
No malice on my part, just moved on.
I would have never in Steve Tuck's ass had it not been for him, and I will always be grateful for that.
But the scene just isn't what it was, used to be you could dail a number, and say "Ted sent me" and next thing you were ramming the hottest muscle jock ass you have ever had, that is until the next week when a hotter bottom was found.
 
Maybe its like that again, since I cut my ties with him. But I don't know.
 
And, I prefer sex with a connection. Pump and dumps dont really do it for me anymore unless I havent cum in a few days.