Fitness can be fucking expensive, at least its also a work expense.
And bodybuilding boosts your immune system...
(So you poz guys, HIT THE GYM!!!)
I guess there are worst things I could spend most of my money on.

Breeding a sexy masculine black boy

Had this sexy little fucker from bbrt come over. trim, toned, bubble butt equipped black boy. (Uh oh, losing my snow queen status). He drove up and we kissed in the driveway, he was a bit shocked by a kiss out in the open. We went to my room and we made out, undressing each other.

His ass is fucking amazing.... fucking amazing, round, big perky, and a hole that begs to be plowed. He went to my bed and we started making out some more, he went down on me, moaning as he sucked on my dick.
Getting sucked does little for me, eating ass does everything for me, so I dove into his big black ass, his hole was sweet, clean, and ready.

I was amazed by how masculine this kid was, usually younger black bottoms(that i have met) tend to be very girly, but not him, he let out manly grunts, a deep "oh fuck", and moans as I ate his all.

Nothing better than a bottom that is all man.

I mounted him, using only the spit from my ass eating as lube. I slid right in, pounding up and down on his bubble butt, getting in his ass deep, he begged for my dick. I gave it to him. He turned and we kissed as I plowed his ass, his amazing bubble butt. I turned him on his back and rode him hard.

"Give me your babies, give me that dick" he said.

I kissed him and plowed him harder.

"Give me that poz load." Fucker knows my language.

I raised his legs and fucked him harder, the bed shaking, hitting the wall.

"Hit that ass, man. Give me that good fucking dick."

I drove into his ass, and felt that wonderful feeling, the feeling of my nuts getting ready to shoot... the tension rising from my perineum, spreading into my balls, churning into the base of my cock... the explosion, I big one, accompanied by a deep bellow, as I shot a big load into this cute boys ass.

We fell... we kissed.

"We have to do that again." he said.

agreed.

Fantasies

Talking to bottoms and asking what their fantasies are, I am always met with common answers, I will share them.

1. Raped by a group of men
2. gangbanged by 10 guys
3. gangbanged by 10 black guys
4. whored out for cash
5. parTied up and whored out for cash
6. being fucked by their dad/big brother
7. blindfolded and having no clue who is fucking them
8. being videotaped
9. their first double penetration
10. fucked, fisted, pissed in, bred... all in one setting(for the first time)
11. fantasizing that they are neg, and being converted
12. being sero-converted by a family member
13. being fucked by their son(hey I love daddies, what can I say)
14. older man being used by a bunch of 20 something year old tops
15. taken to a sexclub, bathhouse, etc. and whored out

Muscle daddy delivery

A chatted up this hot muscled guy on adam4adam. Told him I wanted his muscle ass, his reply was "anytime fucker" and he asked for my number. He said he had to clean up and he would be over at my place in 45 minutes. I lay in my bed, and within half an hour a knock on my door. In walked the sexy muscle daddy... I looked at his arm, I recognized him from golds gym hollywood.

He walked in and we made out. Such a handsome man. We undressed, I bent him over and while reaching in to play with his nipples, I ate his hole.

"Yeah, eat that muscle hole. Eat that ass"

I kept eating him up.

"Yeah, get that muscle pussy all wet."

I took this jockstrapped muscle bottom to my bed, where he got on all fours, my dick sliding into his cunt.

"Yeah, that bareback dick feels awesome. Keep fucking me, yeah, that feels good."

I worked his hole, gliding inside of him, feeling his hard ass and his soft hole.
I put him on his back and fucked him, while playing with his nipples and kissing him, he told me his fantasies and each made my nuts boil.

"Give me that seed boy, cum in my hole."

I fucked this muscle daddy and soon, my nuts went off deep inside of him.
I fingered his hole and licked his nips while he jacked off. He came, and we got dressed and he left.

Cant wait ti plow that muscle pussy again.

Bareback Fistfuck with a muscle couple...

I met this really hot furry muscle couple at Pride, and ran into them again at Faultline's lot party. We decided that we needed to get together, they asked me if I had ever fisted and I told them yes. I also knew that they were barebackers.

I got over there tonight. One of the guys was at boxing class. I asked if it was okat that we were doing this without him, he told me that if he comes home, he'll just join in. He and his partner are not the jealous type.

I ate out his hard round hairy ass. Loosening up his pink hole. Then I slid my raw dick into his ass. He moaned, I moaned. I pumped him hard. I heard the door open. I heard the shower. I pulled out and began to slide my fingers in and out of his hole, applying BoyButter to lubricate my hand. I got in four fingers... then we got to the thick part of my hand, the knuckle of my thumb, any guy I have fisted has a challenge with this area, and this furry daddy was no exception, I rotated my hand, spreading his ass lips open. He told me to try J Lube. This made my hand so much more lubricated, I finally got all the way in. My big hand was up his ass.

I moved in and out, rotated, spread my fingers inside oof him, he was in another realm now. His moans so loud we knew the neighbors could hear. I pulled out and as i went in all the way, in walked the boyfriend. Naked, his pierced cock swingning. I eyed his bubb;e butt. He went to the bathroom and I began punch fucking. Soon, he sat up on my hand and shot a huge load of cum. I kept my hand in him for a bit and withdrew slowly.

Then it was the boyfriends turn, I stuck my face deep in his bubble butt. Lubed up my hand, it went right in, fingers, that knuckle spot, the entire hand. I punch fucked right away, spinning, twisted, punching, pulling all the way and all the way in. Slamming his opened hole with my hand, then I alternated. Left hand all the way in, all the way out. Right hand all the way in, all the way out. There was a little blood mixed in with the lube... not an uncommon sight when being fisted. I asked if he was okay and he said yes, and told me to keep spreading his ass. I pulled out my hand, and spread his hole apart, looking into his hole, looking at my handiwork.

I stood up and leaned into the fisting, applying more power into him. After a while he said he needed a break, and I, having a session with Hollis tomorrow, said I had to go home, we all decided to do this again soon. The one I just fisted took me to his car to take me home, but not before sucking my dick, and spreading his fine bubble butt fist hole for me one more time. Now it was my turn for physical pleasure.

I went in easily into his ass, pounding him. He was so loose and wet and soft from the fisting, it did not take me long to give him my seed. There were a few people in the parking garage that had no idea that man on man barebacking action was going on so close to them.

He thanked me for the load and took me home.
I thanked him and kissed him when we got to my place.

Bubble butt update

Friday night I went to Hollywood spa and noticed this really good looking blond jock boy stroking his cock, we kissed for a bit and went to his room. We got in the room and I ate his furry bubble butt, licking deep in his hole.

"Yeah daddy." he moaned. "Eat my boypussy"

I answered with deeper rimming, pulling the cheeks apart and fucking him with my tongue tasting his sweet jock boy ass.

"That feels so good daddy, keep licking me please, are you getting me ready for your daddy dick."

I stopped rimming him, rubbed his bubbly ass and told him yes.

"Good daddy, I need your dick and load in my boypussy."

Really, a cute jock boy, bubble butt, that wanted my load... okay, breaking my rule of bathhouses(never breed the first hole).

I pounded him, grabbing his body and tearing into his hole.
He was moaning loudly. I told him I was going to cum.

"Yeah daddy, breed me... breed me daddy, happy fathers day dad."

I shot off deep in his guts.

"Thank you daddy, I hope you liked my pussy."

I smiled, thanked him and left.

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Today after work I met up with a guy who I have flirted with at the gym quite a bit.
We got to his room and he undressed, revealing a beautiful muscular body. Including a huge, tanlined, firm bubble butt. He bent over his bed and I ate his pink hole, it was clean, sweet, and manly. He let out the manliest grunts as I ate his hole.
I slid my dick easily into his big ass. We moved in unison, I moved slowly into him, he stroked his thick cock. I flipped him over and fucked him some more, we kissed and then we fucked doggy style, he came while I fucked him and then i shot deep into his hole. I will have to hit that bubble butt real soon.

do you have an email address? I want to send you something

zan.alexander@gmail.com

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my hole is still neg, i want to get it over with, hate the feeling of latex in my ass, how do i just get to the mental state of saying, "fuck it all, poz me up"? i want to get it over with, i try to popper up, lube up and just bend over, but at the last

if you cant get yourself to do it, then you obviously dont want to do it. nothing wrong with that, if you can, just find neg top bb buddies

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Open question to my readers..

To you guys who did everything right and still got infected... I want to know...
How did you feel?
Do you still practice safer sex?
Do you serosort?
Please share your experiences about this.

Do you know if you've pozzed anyone? Do any of the chasers come back to get re-charged?

There was the chaser in the bathhouse almost a year ago. The one who told me after I fucked him that he was neg. Everytime I see him at Hollywood Spa I give him a load.

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is bein' poz worth it?

Is being poz worth what?
It isn't something I sought to become.
It's not something I feel everyone should try to be.

I assume you mean is the pleasure of barebacking worth being poz...
It's difficult to answer such a question, when I'm not sure exactly what you mean.

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Do you get turned on when neg guys want your poz cum? Have you made any really beg for it?

I have only fucked a handful of chasers since becoming poz. It's not something I hunt for really. If anyone begs for my cum it turns me on.

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you gonna tell us about your buddy that was in town and had taken a few loads, so you ended up fucking him?

I posted about it, he picked me up and took me to slammer.

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Did you breed that twink from Pride?

No, I didn't, he was just there for show. I was too busy hunting down muscle daddies... and a buddy was in town and had taken a few loads, so I ended up fucking him.

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Do you like breeding middle eastern guys?

Do I like breeding guys who usually have furry bubble butts, wonderful feeling skin and passion in the sack? Why yes, yes I do.

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A night at melrose spa

I walked in and this European guy told me he was going to be in room 20. After getting undressed, I went to his room, he was stroking his cock, I walked in and began to finger his hole. I raied his legs and slid into his lubed up hole.
I began to stroke off, which I didn't mind because I had no intention of breeding the first guy I landed. I pounded him hard until he shot all over himself. I walked out.

Next was this furry jock boy. I ate his hole and then began to fuck him. He said my raw cock felt amazing. I glided in and out. he was moaning hard, I asked where he wanted my load, he told me on his face.(Wrong answer) I fucked him until he came then I left.

Finally upstairs in the darkroom, I saw this cute boy with a bubble butt in a jock, a guy was fingering his hole, which he was loving. The guy put on a condom and I could see the dissappointment on the kid's face. He wanted raw dick, soon the top left and I began fucking the boy, then I took him to my room. There I put him on his back.

"Raw fuck my pussy"

"Yeah baby boy, I knew you wanted raw dick."

"Will you breed me, use my hole to get off"

I nodded. "You want my dirty load."

His eyes lit up.

"Yeah, poz me, fucking give me that poz cum in my pussy. Give me that dirty load."

I rammed him deep in his bubble butt.
I turned him around and kept fucking.
I shot my load deep in his butt.

"Are you poz?" I asked.

"I will be after tonight... gonna find more guys to fuck your load into me, make sure it takes."

(Lots of young chasers these days)

Do you think we're all going to end up poz? It seems like everyone barebacks these days...even the 'safe sex only' guys. Does anyone have safe sex anymore?

Do I think everyone is going to end up poz? No. I don't.
A lot of guys out there still use condoms, yes many guys lie about their status and safe sex practices. But many guys actually go by their word.
Also with some guys being immune or having a varied level of resistance to the virus, some wont get it no matter how piggy they are.

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Naughty pics from pride

For you twink lovers... this little show off really attracted the crowds.

Do you think your life is defined or at least guided by sex?

No. I get why you would ask that. This blog is about my sexlife, yeah I toss in other parts.

Work
Fitness
Friends/social life
Sex

I listed them in order of priority
Work takes precedent over everything.
I always take a client when i can.
I will tell tricks to wait until I come back from the gym, and I will not cancel plans with friends for sex. Yes I love sex, It feels great, try it sometime if you don't believe me. But I have brought this point up when I friend asked me about sex vs relationships and being faithful.

Sex is so easy to get that it isnt something that i define anything by, its something i do, and since it is so easy to get, its not worth doing if it would hurt someone i was with.

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Capping him off

BareNecessity hit me up and let me know that he was in town, and that he had taken 9 loads in his hole. He picked me up and we went to slammer... on the way there i fingered his hole, usually I would have eaten those loads out but tonight, all i wanted was to use all that cum as lube, we went to the booth near the blowjob area, I had him on his back, sunk in my cock and went to town on his ass. Pounding him from the start, then he was bent over. Our grunts filling the sex club. The smell of cum hit my nose, taking over my brain and cock, I drilled his cute little butt until I shot into his guts, then I played with his hole while he jerked off and shot his load. I quick hookup to end a very fun day,

Pride was a blast.

Last moment

I am marching in the LA Gay Pride Parade, so anyone that has wanted to
"see me out on the street and bash my face in with a baseball bat" for being an open poz barebacker, this is your chance.
I'll be marching with Avatar and the LALC and Band of Brothers... see ya guys around.

Pride, it's not just for neg boys anymore,

Are there bars in lA with backrooms for sex?

Sadly no... but that doesnt stop guys like me from being sleazy in the restrooms. There is an event at Faultline this weekend called Leatherfux... i may go check it out.

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Hey Mindtrip, I didn't want to post this question to the public, but was just wondering if you are able to read Matt & Dans blog? I'm a fan of reading their posts (and yours) but I'm not able to view their blog anymore, for some reason. Anyway, just wonde

I havent requested an invite, it is still unsure what will happen to their blog.

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Thoughts and opinions on the HIV virus

The HIV virus tore through the gay community, taking many people away too soon.
Thanks to meds this doesn't happen anymore, but I know there are some readers of this blog who has laid more than one person to rest. Many men I spend time with sexually and politically have shared the tales of friends and loved ones lost.
Many of these men are just as piggy as me, so I don't see my slutty actions as disrespectful to the men that were taken too soon. Back then the HIV was a death sentence instead of a controllable condition that it is today.

My numbers are very good, very fucking good. My CD4 dances between high 1100 and low 1200's. I am not on meds, not that I would mind being on meds, I just like that I am impacting the health and insurance industry at all since I am not on any medication.
Oh and my viral load, though detectable is very low... lower than it has ever been actually.

Since "you have HIV" no longer means "you are going to die" there is a feeling that nothing can hurt us, i think. We live our lives and since we dont have to worry about getting HIV, we fuck. Balls to the wall, bareback, cum in ass, multi-load swapping, dirty hotel room raw fucking. HDK, Treasure Island, Machofucker, and DickWadd did not create this sex, they merely show that it exist.

For some they can watch these and live vicariously through the exploits of Brad McGuire, Dawson, Damon Dogg and the rest of the gang. But for some they see that passion, that unrestrained sex, and they long for it. Can't blame them. Pigs make much better porn than some loud mouthed, hypocritical, overweight drag queen ever could. The blame for barebacking does not lie in these companies, no one holds a gun to your head and makes you bareback. I don't even blame that sexy guy with the icy blue eyes that showed me how good raw fucking and breeding feels. It was my choice to not wear condoms.

Many guys want to have sex like that, but they want to stay negative. They take loads from guys they know to be negative. But still they long to not have to worry, to be able to 'be free'. This in part I think has lead to the erotism that has grown around the HIV virus. These bug chasers are looking for seroconversion, not for the virus, but for what they think it will mean to them. Poz men, poz dick, poz cum has become a fetish for many men.

Am I adding to it?
Some would say yes.
Some would say no.
I am merely sharing my sex life.
Sharing the sexual exploits of a poz barebacking top.
I'll share a thought that I haven't told anyone.
Once, after finding out I had HIV, i was bitten by a dog.
I looked at my blood and thought
"Thats what poison looks like."
It messes with your head and heart. Stigma. Self imposed.
Imposed by others.

But then, you get over that. You confront things within yourself.
You find who your true friends are.
You just want to LIVE.

But it is there, that feeling of liberation that comes after.
Being HIV was once seen as a death sentence.
for some, being HIV negative is seen as a prison.

No face, no ass, no service

Recently I have been hit on by lots of guys whose only pictures are of their dicks.
Erect, flaccid, totally naked, in underwear, out of their boxers. They are all shocked and offended that I reply with a total lack of interest in hooking up with them. Okay, you have a nice dick, alright. See, I really don't give a flying fuck what your dick looks like. I don't even know what the dicks of 70% of my tricks looks like. God bless you Charles Bennett(inventor of the jockstrap circa 1874).

My bbrt profile is very explicit as to what I am after: ass. Butt. Manpussy. And boycunts. So why these men think flashing me their cocks will get them an invite into my room is beyond me. I really don't feel like taking the risk of inviting someone who suffers from the dreaded condition of Nassatall.

No, I am not going to give you my email.
No, I am not going to cam with you on yahoo or msn.
You have 9 photos... nine. You can combo break your reel of cock with a face and ass pic. I assure you the latter is what tops are after.

This week at Gold's

1."Wow... you are bulking up, and filling out, and your face is looking so angular, damn, you are so handsome, you are doing a great job." Zak Spears.

2. "So my girl came over and i had her go to the shower... I did it, I ate her ass. I fucking loved it. First I ran my tongue in circles around the rim, then I went to the jab. Man, I get why you love doing it so much it was awesome, what else can i do when I eat her ass?" my sexy ass trainer

what's the age of the oldest guy who fucked you - if you've ever been fucked?

Damn, way back in those long lost days where I bottomed regularly... hmmm... oh yeah, it was a 50 year old muscle daddy that I met in Palm Springs.

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what's your opinion of bottoms who are bending over ever which way, yet have not bothered to clean out... I know if I am not prepped, I ain't going there...

I get real pissed when i run into a bottom that didn't take time to clean. I once went to fuck a guy, now mind you, i called when i left my house, called when i got on the freeway, called when i was parking. I got there, stuck my dick in and he wasn't clean. When he saw that i was upset about it, his only defense was that he wasn't sure i was coming over.

If its an online hookup, that is immediate grounds for getting blocked in my opinion.

But let me end this on a good note, to all you bottoms that own one of those turbe shower power douches and use them religiously, I on behalf of all tops, thank you.

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My week with Dan

As you guys know Dan was in town this week. On a pleasure trip. I monoplolized most of his time.
Tuesday I took him to Midtowne Spa. We got naked and went upstairs to the mattress, I raised Dan legs, ate his hole and slid my cock into his hole. Immediately we had a crowd.

"Give me that poz cock" Dan yelled in front of everyone.

I fucked Dan looking into his eyes, kissing him as the crowd stroked their cocks and felt up on our bodies. Dan told me how wonderful my cock felt. I remembered when i last fucked him, taking a break from work to go and breed him quickly, there and gone in less than 10 minutes. This fuck, I wanted to remember, I wanted his hole wet and throbbing from me. I pulled all the way out and rammed back in. making him moan.

Dan found an ass that he called 'spectacular' and bred it 4 times. Watching him in action is a fucking sight to behold, he seeded this boy 4 fucking times, that boy fucking begged for his seed every fucking time.

Dan and I went downstairs and went to the mattress there and had a blast putting on another show. We made out, blew each other and ate each others holes.

Then we went upstairs, wanting to find someone to join in, we found this lean and tatted chocolate covered twink. Dan bottomed for both of us, this slender black boy then rode Dan's big uncut dick like a champ, working his ass. Dan fucked into his butt, pounding him and making him moan like a bitch.

Dan and I walked around again and found this hot poz muscle bottom. Dan and I tagged his ass, taking turns opening up his asshole. He rode us both, backing his muscle cunt onto our dicks.

The bottom came as we fucked him.
We went back downstairs, Dan met someone that wanted to breed him. He left to his room, I went in a small booth with two latins. I tagged the bottom, who had an ass full of semen in his hole already. He tagged that bitch and made him cry out while he got plowed. I fucked the other latin guy as well.

Dan was so jealous when he saw the guy later.
Dan and I left to his motel room, where I spent the night.
But before we slept, I raised Dan's legs up and filled him with my poz cum.

The next night Dan picked me up and we tag fucked bttmmuscle from bbrt. This guy is sexy. Deep manly voice. sexy muscle butt. Handsome as hell. and he lives 5 minutes from where I work.

We went over and the guy was naked, ass in the air and cum in his hole. Dan and I double rimmed his cum filled cunt.
I rammed my dick in his hole. he begged for my dirty seed, my poz cum. he moaned as i rammed in and out of his used muscle hole.
Dan took his turn into that silky smooth muscled pussy. He loved Dan's dick.
I fucked him again and shot a huge load of cum that Dan felched out of him. We got dressed and left.

The next day I fucked bttmmuscle again, using his hole, calling this stud of a man a sissy bottom faggot, which he loved. I shot in him and went back to work.

Dan and I drove around yesterday together, he was doing errands and we kept molesting each other in the car. It was a fun week hanging and fucking with him, and getting to know him.

(he has to fill out a form to make his blog invite only, right now it is very restricted... he he doesnt want to risk giving an invite to the people who have been threatening him, he is looking at his options)

how old is the oldest guy you have fucked?

60. This really sexy silver haired muscled bottom man, he had 5 loads in his hole, his ass is solid and he is ne handsome fucker.

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do you know how to get invited to matt and dans blog?

i dont, i'll ask him when i see him again, probably tomorrow.

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How many guys have you bred in your life?

I have no clue... other than the year I counted on my blog, I never kept count... but if it isn't in the 1000s, its fucking close to it.

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how old is the youngest guy you've bred? The youngest?

actually 21. Unless the guy is real fucking sexy(biohazslut is an example) I usually go for older men.

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So you all know

When I see Dan today, I will let him know you guys all miss his blog.