I started having sex when i was 12 years old. KMart restroom in my hometown. MY sex-life was vanilla then. Very vanilla. My boyfriend at the time wouldn't even let me eat his ass. I fucked raw a few times. But didn't know anything about barebacking. Anyway, when I was living in San Diego, I went to a vid arcade on University Avenue in gay old Hillcrest. I went in and watched my first ever Treasure Island Video. It was Planting Seed. In the scene, Brad McGuire and Jesse O Toole were fucking the daylights out of Antonio Vela.
I invite this hot guy into my booth. Blue eyes, that piercing pale blue. He sucks me for a bit and i tell him I want to fuck him. Before i can reach for a rubber, he sits on my dick. I fuck him real hard, though nothing compared to what I do these days. I announce that I am going to cum and he tells me to go ahead. I had never cum in a dude before, it was the best feeling, There was no going back.
I then did the whole "Are you safe?" thing when I played, but i always fucked raw.
Finally when I moved back to LA I became real with myself, and knew that sooner or later
I would get HIV. I was okay with it. I kept playing raw. I fucked Steve Tuck at Slammer while he had loads of cum in him. I played with a hot poz couple all night, giving his bf around 7 loads in his cunt. This is the sex I love. The sex I crave. Filling a boy with cum, feeling cum in his hole.
Balls to the wall, uninhibited, bareback sex. I knew that being poz would be a part of my life soon enough.
October 26, 2007- I tested positive for HIV. I accepted it far before that. I realized that I wasn't going to drop dead, and i have allowed it to make me stronger and nastier.
I only fuck raw, and i never pull out. If you take my dick, you take my cum. It's that simple.
I meet guys on adam4adam that thin I'm hot and want to play safe, and guys that i see at bathhouses, if you dont want raw sex, you aren't fucking with me. Am I proud to be POZ...
yeah. I am proud because it connects me. I have found such love and strength within the 'hiv community'. HIV is something to deal with that is dealt with a sense of love, passion, sexuality, and brotherhood. And I am damned proud to be a part of that.
I have friends that are there for me when I need them.
And those I am there for.
Yeah, I wouldn't have it any other way.